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i am more than miserable and done with life…?
I have failed at helping myself..and no one else can help me anymore either. I have failed on 23 medications, been to 9 different therapists, holistic therapy, vitamins and minerals, exercise, journaling, mood charts, meditation, diet, asked God for help, etc….what can i do to stop this depression/agitation/bipolar mix that is making me suicidal?
You have not failed yourself so stop thinking that way….sometimes it is a chemical imbalance that can make you feel like you have desended into hell….23 medications shows there is something not right…you cannot begin to beat the mixture you have until you get the medication that works for you. I have a chemical inbalance with some OCD, PTS, anxiety & depression all thrown in together but I take medication (wellbutrin) & I have something I take if my anxiety level rises to a level I can’t bring down. To look at me you would never know…I finally feel normal…I can function, interact..I am me again. You can do it…alot of us have been pulled back from the brink of suicide…the most important thing is to know you can control it & have your life back…I control the OCD etc…it no longer controls me….
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