bipolar drug addiction

Seriously need help before I completely ruin my life. I am a woman aged 27, on probation for drugs?
State prison 3 times. All my expenses are reduced to my drug addiction.I think I have depression, but I've never been motivated enough to see a doctor. Im not the cause bipolar I do not have ups and downs. Only low. Im like Eeyore! I want to know if there is such a pill thats for depression that has very high levels of methamphetamine in it. I need these pills or I rather go to prison for four years! Not fair. I need this drive daily! Legal or not. What should I do?
Methamphetamine is a drug very specific. You will not be able to find any antidepressant. There is no legal way to obtain the methamphetamine, that I know of. You may not want to hear this, but the rehabilitation and support are what really need to do. What have been the advisers saying?
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