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Do you think I could be bipolar?
I’ve seen three therapists in my life (because I felt depressed and/or angry) and have been diagnosed with nonspecific depressive disorder. That said, I am not convinced that’s all it is. There are several people in my family with bipolar disorder and my mom has told me she suspects I have it too.
My life isn’t bad–I have a good boyfriend, a house and a fulfilling job. But for some reason I feel totally hopeless and can’t stop whining and feeling sorry for myself. I have convinced myself all my friends are bad people who don’t care about me. I get these impulsive desires to dump my boyfriend, ditch my friends and move out-of-state. I’m rarely happy and don’t know what to do to make myself feel better. People describe me as “moody.” I’m easily irritated and tend to hold grudges about little things. I start lots of ambitious projects that never get finished. I cut myself once and have experienced minor hallucinations (tracers, hearing voices). Any advice? PS, no health insurance. =(
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San Clemente Psychologist | Marriage Counseling | Piper Walsh PhD