self medicating bipolar disorder
I can’t take it anymore.?
I’m 19 years old and I was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder 3 years ago, and unfortunately, it’s progressively gotten much worse. There are days where I just feel physically and emotionally paralyzed by my depression-however, there are occasional spurts of time where my mania kicks in and I feel invincible. My moods are unpredictable and completely blind to whatever my current situation. I’ve been in this debilitating funk where I have completely lost interest in everything. All I do everyday is sit at my kitchen table and zone out on wikipedia and smoke weed to (temporarily) alleviate my sadness. My self-medicating is definitely exacerbating my bipolarity, trust me I very well understand this, but I just can’t seem to get myself out there. I don’t talk to my friends anymore because I have no desire for any social interaction, which is strange considering how social I once was. I really don’t know what kind of answer I’m seeking, but at this point, anything will help. Thanks.
My husband is also bi-polar with a tendency more toward depression. Are you taking any meds? If not, TAKE THEM whether you end up feeling better or not. If so, get back to the doctor and have them re-evaluate what meds might work better for you. It took my husband’s doctors over a year to find the right combination that works for him. Today, you’d never know he’s bi-polar. His still has MINOR bouts of depression, but the mania is all but gone. I wish you luck!!
Self Medicating ( Part 2 )
