bipolar abuse
Tuesday, April 27th, 2010
Do you have a story with depression/Suicide/rape/anorexia/bulimia/Bipolar disorder/Abuse/Schizophrenia?
left the categories broad so it would in chances my chances of a responses.
As a child I had random bouts of anger, aggressiveness and sadness. When I was a teenager I found out that doctors thought I had ADHD when I was younger. When I was eight years old I developed Trichotillomania (a compulsive hair pulling disorder). I began getting teased in the fourth grade for my hair and my weight, which had risen due to lack of self-esteem and compulsive eating. When I was twelve years old, I began scratching which developed into cutting shortly after. At thirteen I began burning myself with lighters, heated screwdrivers and spoons, etc. When I was 16 I decided that I was tired of my weight and restricted my food to around 200 calories (give or take) a day. Eventually I decided that I wanted to enjoy food while not retaining all of the calories and also purged for the first time at 16. From the time I was around 13/14 until the time I was 17 I attempted suicide three times. I was almost 17 years old when I confided in my parents about the self-injury alone and was on Lexapro for a few months. The medicine made me very hyper, I would eat constantly and I couldn’t sleep. I would eat whole pizzas and often a meal every hour, without purging. I asked to be taken off of the medicine and before my doctor relocated she told me she was “99.9% sure I was Bipolar”. I have not seen a medical professional since. I am currently almost 19 and still dealing with all of these issues, except the hair pulling which I have not done in almost a year.
I think many of these problems stemmed from bullying and the death of my grandpa at age ten. He was my best friend and a wonderful man. My family seemed to drift apart somewhat following his death.
Pardon my longwinded reply. Sometimes it just feels good to get it all out. 
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